Hi
So, this has always been a problem. Also, me being a living example of a socially awkward penguin doesn't help either. The thing is, I'm not a social kind of person. I'm a kind of person who doesn't ask people "How are you?", because I KNOW they're always "Fine". Hence, I always ignore unnecessary words. I have 3 brothers and 2 sisters. I talk a lot with my 2 brothers and my older sister. But my older brother, he's...a person I really look upto. He IS an inspiration for me. He completed his mechanical engineering from NUST a few months ago and immediately got a job at Phillip Morris. So, now stays in Sahiwal and visits us every month.
So, I AM always excited that he's coming but when he comes, I have nothing to talk about. Even in his school years, he was the only one in the house with a separate room, so he always just used to sit there. Then he got his own computer, and came from his room rarely, then university came and his laptop, he came out of his room even rarely.
We've never fought or anything and he buys me stuff too (like the scanner, for example). But I do with him what I do with most of my relatives, I can't talk. Note that it's not that I don't want to, I'd LOVE to talk and be social, but I'm not. I don't know what to talk about and every question I think of, is deemed as 'unnecessary' by my brain, just like the "How are you?" questions. I only talk a lot who share my interests (naturally) which are mostly computers and gaming and internet. Even with friends, I don't talk unnecessary, like gossip or badmouth teachers or other people.
A lot of this is also because I'm a goody two shoes. I don't 'gossip' about other people, I don't spread news which would make people lose their respect. I don't give teachers 'names'. A lot of people talk because they're always gossiping and badmouthing other people, but I don't. I'm not social.
So, what should I do? I love all my brothers and sisters but I don't know what should I talk about? It's kinda disappointing how he comes once in a month and I don't say anything. What would you do if you were in my place?
So, this has always been a problem. Also, me being a living example of a socially awkward penguin doesn't help either. The thing is, I'm not a social kind of person. I'm a kind of person who doesn't ask people "How are you?", because I KNOW they're always "Fine". Hence, I always ignore unnecessary words. I have 3 brothers and 2 sisters. I talk a lot with my 2 brothers and my older sister. But my older brother, he's...a person I really look upto. He IS an inspiration for me. He completed his mechanical engineering from NUST a few months ago and immediately got a job at Phillip Morris. So, now stays in Sahiwal and visits us every month.
So, I AM always excited that he's coming but when he comes, I have nothing to talk about. Even in his school years, he was the only one in the house with a separate room, so he always just used to sit there. Then he got his own computer, and came from his room rarely, then university came and his laptop, he came out of his room even rarely.
We've never fought or anything and he buys me stuff too (like the scanner, for example). But I do with him what I do with most of my relatives, I can't talk. Note that it's not that I don't want to, I'd LOVE to talk and be social, but I'm not. I don't know what to talk about and every question I think of, is deemed as 'unnecessary' by my brain, just like the "How are you?" questions. I only talk a lot who share my interests (naturally) which are mostly computers and gaming and internet. Even with friends, I don't talk unnecessary, like gossip or badmouth teachers or other people.
A lot of this is also because I'm a goody two shoes. I don't 'gossip' about other people, I don't spread news which would make people lose their respect. I don't give teachers 'names'. A lot of people talk because they're always gossiping and badmouthing other people, but I don't. I'm not social.
So, what should I do? I love all my brothers and sisters but I don't know what should I talk about? It's kinda disappointing how he comes once in a month and I don't say anything. What would you do if you were in my place?