The saddest time? Few years ago, i did something i knew will make my Creator khafa, but i was too sad that i didn't care and i did it. Later i start sketching(even though i knew that it was haram because i only made sketches of woman/anime) time passed and i start listening music. Then one night, i saw a dream, clearly mentioning that the path i was on/the-bad-habits, aren't leading to a good end. When i woke-up i was so happy to realize it's not to late, i'm still alive.
Then i did wazu, pray nawafil, asked Allah to forgive me for the stupid things, rude nd lies i told to others. I cried and i cried for hours, the more i cried the more i feel relaxed, it was like my body was cooling down and some unwanted weight has been lift up.
Now i feel this un-explainable great feeling everytime i remember Allah. Thank-you Allah t'Allah for everything for what i never deserved, thank-you.